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hey starrie- i have been doing some thinking. i realize, i have issues. and i can't be your koi until i get them sorted. i love you. but i can't deal. i rarily ever see you, and it's not working. it's not. in two years, i will be in college, and i will see you. even if i have to move there. i just need seperation for awhile. but it is important that you know that _i_love_you_ You MUST know that. Because I do. i can't pollute you with my dark thoughts. i need to clear them before i can make myself and you happy. i want us to be best friends though, which is why i will still send you your awaited ring, so you can remember me. aishiteru... ~Kou +learned to love on Friday, November 2, 2001[10:54 p.m.]+ o_O;;;;; My, you have an exciting life. I'm glad your house didn't burn down! ~hugs Kou~ Scary. Ai shiteruuuuuuuuuu! ~Starrie +learned to love on Sunday, October 21, 2001[11:03 a.m.]+ It's okay. I fine. *hugs and kisses* Heehee, our house almost burned down today, but fortunately it didn't. Yay. we were lucky. O.o Okie, I go now. Bai bai! Aishiteruuu! ~Kou +learned to love on Thursday, October 18, 2001[05:33 p.m.]+ Ah!! I'm so sorry, koi. ~hugs~ T______T ~Starrie +learned to love on Thursday, October 18, 2001[05:29 p.m.]+ i dunno if seph told u, but my grandfather died yesterday. but i want to let you know that i'm okay. so don't worry. ^_^ *hugs and kisses* Aishiteru ~Kou +learned to love on Wednesday, October 17, 2001[06:41 p.m.]+ +learned to love on []+ +learned to love on []+ +learned to love on []+ eh...my grandfather died today, so if you talk to me, i might be a little out of it. just want to remind you that i love you. aishiteru. ~Kou +learned to love on Tuesday, October 16, 2001[05:20 p.m.]+ ~g~ I'm a patient person. You don't even have to get me one. I just wanted to get you something. ~hugs and kisses~ Ai shiteru, koi of mine. ~Starrie +learned to love on Monday, October 15, 2001[09:53 p.m.]+ +learned to love on []+ I'm going to get your ring in NY, and I don't go until next Sunday, so please wait patiently. Heehee. I'm gonna pick out the nicest one! *giggles and nuzzles you* Aishiteru! ~Kou +learned to love on Monday, October 15, 2001[01:03 p.m.]+ Waiii! I'm glad you like it! ^____^ I was so worried when I was picking it out. ~gathers koi into a hug and kiss~ Ai shiteru! ~Starrie +learned to love on Saturday, October 13, 2001[02:38 p.m.]+ *running glomps you* IT'S BEAUTIFUL! I love this necklace! I love it I love it I love it! I love you! *smothers you in kisses* thank you! I'm going to wear it all the time. heehee. I won't lose it! ^__^ *is happy* yay! Thank you! Aishiteru! Wo ai ni! ~Kou +learned to love on Friday, October 12, 2001[05:50 p.m.]+ lol ~kiss~ Exams at school...SAT on Saturday...Fish Fry on Sunday...Major band competition next Saturday...How stressful...x_x I hope you got your letter today...^__^ I'm not positive I'll be on tonight...My parents found a movie for us to watch with dinner. ^^ Love you! ~Starrie +learned to love on Thursday, October 11, 2001[06:14 p.m.]+ +learned to love on []+ hi hi koi. whats up? how's my angel sent from heaven doing? ^_~ Heh, anyway, I haven't recieved your letter, hopefully tomorrow. *kisses you* Okay, I need to go now, because I'm talking to you on AIM, and you need my full attention! heehee. I love you. ~Kou +learned to love on Wednesday, October 10, 2001[07:53 p.m.]+ Well, as you now, I'm back. ^__^ I sent your letter out this morning. I'm glad your home life is getting a little better. ^_____^ I missed you. Ai shiteru. ~Starrie +learned to love on Tuesday, October 9, 2001[10:47 p.m.]+ Koi! I don't want only cheerful letters! I want to know everything about your life! And whatever's going on, I want you to spill it out! That's what I do with you, thats what I expect from you! *hugs you tight* Tell me what's up at home!! baka! ^_^ Life is much better over here, not much. but better. I miss you alot, though, and i'll look forward to your letter! heehee. I love you so so so much! Don't forget that! And I haven't bought your ring either. I'm going to get it in New York. They have nice once there. ^_^ Ok, I go. Aishiteru. ~Kou +learned to love on Wednesday, October 3, 2001[07:11 p.m.]+ ~hugs~ Hey koi. Things have been a bit...off...at home. That's why I haven't written you- I wanted to write a happy letter. ^_^ I haven't left my house except to go to school, so I haven't been able to get your ring yet. I have to go to Atlanta tomorrow and I won't be back until Sunday, but I might have internet connection so I can still get on and write here. I'm really really sorry. ~hugs and kisses~ Please forgive me. My parents are giving my imouto and I money when they drop us off in Atlanta (they're going to Texas to watch Amiko graduate) so I can get your ring there and I'll write you a really really really long letter. Ne? ^_____^ Love you. ~Starrie +learned to love on Tuesday, October 2, 2001[08:02 p.m.]+ +learned to love on []+ KOI! Whats up? hey hey! I missed you. Alot. You didn't write to me, or anything...I'm guessing you had not time, so it's okay...but write to me when you get the chance. As in snail mail....okay? okay. thanks. Aishiteru. ~Kou +learned to love on Monday, October 1, 2001[10:15 p.m.]+ I'm back. ^__^ Sorry about the absence. I had to take a break from the computer. ~hugs~ I'm sorry you got grounded again... Ai shiteru. ~Starrie +learned to love on Sunday, September 30, 2001[11:08 a.m.]+ sorry i can't write alot, koi. i'm grounded offline. but you can still write to me, kk? k. ^_^ i'll try to sneak on and post in here when i can. aishiteru. ~Kou +learned to love on Tuesday, September 25, 2001[05:57 p.m.]+ Wow, two entries in one day. I must be getting good, ne? I'm very sorry, Kou. I won't be online to chat with anyone for a few days. There are some things at home I need to cope with. I just wanted to tell you so you wouldn't think I was avoiding my chat buddies and you. ~kisses~ Hope to see you soon. Ai shiteru. Starrie. +learned to love on Sunday, September 23, 2001[10:14 p.m.]+ Got your letter last night! Wai! ^___^ ~is happy now~ Well, not happy about one thing. Sorry to say this, but I can't stand your parents. Sorry I haven't been on much lately...blehhhh...Saturday was our first band festival, Friday was the football game...I spent 13 hours working with the marching band yesterday. o_O Why didn't you have school? Because you were sick? I hope you're better now! T__T ~glomps~ ~goes to make koi chicken noodle soup~ ~runs around in circles~ Lots to catch up on...x_x Ai shiteru~! ~Starrie +learned to love on Sunday, September 23, 2001[11:24 a.m.]+ Yay! You wrote! I'm so happy now! Heehee. I love yooou! Anyways, I have no school today and tomorrow. Yippie for me. Haha. More time to write to you. Lol. Anyways, I sent your letter. Heehe. Ok, must goish. Ja'ne! Aishiteru! ~Kou +learned to love on Tuesday, September 18, 2001[06:23 p.m.]+ Bleh...Sorry it took a while to get back here...^^; Today was not a good day. x_x I go to school with idiots. I was at school until 5, and I will be til 5 tomorrow and day after too, and Friday I'll be there from 5:30-11:00, all because of band...And Saturday I'll be gone from 8:45 am to after 7:30 pm because of a band competition...There's just no break! I hope you got my letter! ^______^ Ai shiteru! ~Starrie +learned to love on Tuesday, September 18, 2001[05:59 p.m.]+ i didn't get your letter yet, hopefully Monday, since Sunday you don't get mail. Anyway, I gotta go lose in DDR. Ja'ne. I love you. ~Kou-chan +learned to love on Saturday, September 15, 2001[10:49 p.m.]+ I sent your letter a few days ago...I'm disappointed that it hasn't gotten there yet...T_T Hasn't life been hectic lately? o_o I've been spending a lot of my time in front of the TV, watching the news. It's pretty fascinating, actually... Went to the hospital Wednesday, and ended up staying home from school that day. ~waves happy flags~ I went to have a Cat Scan, and I got my results yesterday...They have no clue what is wrong with me...bleh...x_x Ah well. Today was pretty interesting...o_O I got up at 7:10 (after going to bed at 12:30 last night) to practice with my soccer ball in my back yard. It was fun. ^__^ I'm sorry that I haven't been on much these days...I'll try to get on more in the future...T_T It's getting harder and harder to find time to chat, but I'll make time! Daijoubu! Ai shiteru!! Song for the day: "Alive", by POD Thought for the day: In the end we are nothing more but dust and half forgotten memories. +learned to love on Saturday, September 15, 2001[06:55 p.m.]+ i can't wait to get your letter. ha, when you actually send it. lol. anyways, i'm sneaking online, because i'm waay grounded. damn. i can't write much. aishiteru. ja. i hope u get my letter soon. ~Kou +learned to love on Sunday, September 9, 2001[07:48 p.m.]+ Yay! A letter! ^__^ I'm still working on yours. My sister never called...My parents think her flight messed up so they weren't allowed to use the phones...T__T I finally finished cleaning my room. Now I'm writing and rotting my eyes in front of my computer. Song for the Day: Alive, by POD Thought for the Day: In the end, nothing really matters. Ai shiteru, koi. ~hugs~ ~Starrie +learned to love on Sunday, September 9, 2001[07:31 p.m.]+ koi, i got myself sick, so i can't post much. gomen nasai. also grounded. i'll try to sneak on when i can. i wrote you a letter though. 4 pages. i proud. heehee. okay, g2g. aishiteru. *kisses* ~Kou +learned to love on Sunday, September 9, 2001[12:19 p.m.]+ I missed you sooooo much. ~hugs tightly until koi turns blue~ Hai, I noticed you were careful on the card. ehehe ^___^ Haiiii, one day we'll be together and we won't have to worry about anything anymore. ~kisses~ One day. Ai shiteru, koi. ~Starrie +learned to love on Sunday, September 9, 2001[08:59 a.m.]+ You don't know how much I've missed you. I've missed you so much. I thought my heart was going to crack. *hugs and kisses* I missed you so so so much. Btw, I made sure not to put any mushy stuff on the postcard, but you probably see the certain words like "hugs and kisses" mean more then they seem...heh. ^_~ Gosh, I'm so glad you checked this, I've been waiting for days and days, and was pondering if I should call you or not. I was going to, but I wasn't sure who was going to pick up, or if you were home. Gosh, I'm so glad. *kisses* Damn, one day we'll live together and we won't have to be like this. Geez. I go now. See you later. Aishiteru. ~Kou +learned to love on Wednesday, September 5, 2001[08:02 p.m.]+ ~takes a running glomp that sends both to the floor~ Koi!!! Welcome back! I missed you so much! ~covers with kisses~ I was so lonely here! T___T Sorry for the delayed reply...I haven't been allowed on the computer much these days (I keep getting booted off early because of school and because I'm sick. x_X;) Got the postcard! Loved it! My mom found it first...She gave it to me and asked who it was from. I never answered her. I just said "Oh!" as if I'd been expecting it. ~g~ That is such a pretty picture...^__^ I'll try to stay on tonight so we can talk, ne? ^___^ ~glomps and kisses again and kisses and kisses and wouldn't stop or let go except she's being made to go to evil school...~ Ai shiteru!!!! ~Starrie +learned to love on Wednesday, September 5, 2001[07:44 a.m.]+ hey koi! i'm home! i missed you sooo much! did you get my postcard? did you like it? *hugs tightly and kisses* i thought of you often. i love you! i'm so happy to be home! heh, it was a disaster. lol, i'll tell you about it when i'm not unpacking. ja'ne, koi! aishiteru. ~Kou +learned to love on Sunday, September 2, 2001[08:40 p.m.]+ I tried not to come back here and write something because I know you're still gone, but...I can't help it. I miss you so much. Ai shiteru, Kou. ~Starrie +learned to love on Sunday, August 26, 2001[10:54 a.m.]+ *kisses* arigatou, koi. Right now, I'm packing. I won't be able to see you for TEN days! Oh no! AGHH! Crap. Alright, I love you! *glomp* Must go pack. Ja'ne! Aishiteru! ~Kou-chan +learned to love on Wednesday, August 22, 2001[10:43 a.m.]+ A surprise party, hm? ~g~ Sounds like fun. I'm sorry I couldn't be there...T_T It would have been sooo nice if I could just be there to glomp you in real life. 'Course, if I did, I probably wouldn't be able to let go. ~grin~ Is that a bad thing? T__T It's so empty here without Amiko...~pulls koi into embrace~ At least I'm not alone...^__^ ~hugs koi tightly~ I will never hurt you, koi. ~kisses forehead~ Ai shiteru- zutto. ~Starrie +learned to love on Tuesday, August 21, 2001[10:13 p.m.]+ heh, thank you koi. my friends threw me a surprise party, i was shocked. but too bad you weren't there. i really want to see you so bad. i'm soooo serious. i love you so much! it's insane! lately, i've been going mad with the feeling that i've been so empty. and i realize it's because i need to hold you. i really do. and i've been totally thinking alot. and thinking isn't always good. i'm so afraid of getting hurt again, and i'm hoping to God that you won't. it's so hard for me to trust, and i'm opening up to you. my head knows you won't hurt me, but my heart is weary. i love you. ~Kou-chan +learned to love on Tuesday, August 21, 2001[12:02 a.m.]+ Hai, she leaves tomorrow...T______T A tad early...~g~ As soon as I take the SAT in October I have to start applying to places. It's never a tad early for me. ^^ ~flying glomp~ Happy birthday, koiiiiii!!! ~kiss kiss nuzzle nuzzle~ ^_____________________^ Shall I give you birthday spankings? ~g~ Ai shiteru! ~Starrie +learned to love on Monday, August 20, 2001[07:12 a.m.]+ Ami ish leaving? So early? Agh! Terrible! No one to gross out! Damn! Heehee. Anyways, as for New York, I really hope so. It's a TAD early to be thinking about it. Well, not really, but we have a half a year, or a year to figure it out. Hope we work something out. *kisses* I want to you to be absolutely happy with your decision though. I don't want you giving up something you really want, for lousy ol me. Alright? Promise me, whatever you do, will be because you want to do it. Okay. Aishiteru, koi. ~Kou-chan +learned to love on Sunday, August 19, 2001[10:39 p.m.]+ I hope you have fun! ^__^ ~kisses, huggles, squeezes, kisses, glomps, kisses kisses kisses back~ ~g~ I will try to go to a college up there, I really will. The other two I'm considering besides the USAF are both in New York. One is in...~looks~ Garden City, and the other is in Brockport, wherever those are. ^^; The thing about the USAF Academy is that it's really hard to get into, so it would be an honor to be accepted, and it's military, which is what I'd been aiming for. For years I've struggled between military or college- military, so I can move everywhere and be on post, and I have a fascination with the military (I'm 4th generation military ^^;); and college, so I could get jobs easier. I didn't think you'd want to go to college in Colorado...I looked it up on an atlas to see where it was, and it's smack dab in the middle of the US. ^^; I bet they watch grass grow for fun...The problem is...I doubt I'll get accepted in, but if I do get accepted...I don't know if I could make myself turn them down. It's all very confusing... We'll figure something out. I promise. ~kisses and nuzzles~ Ai shiteru. Zutto. ~Starrie Thought for the Day: Ami-neechan leaves Tuesday morning. T___T +learned to love on Saturday, August 18, 2001[05:57 p.m.]+ Still at friends house, will be at friends house until 6:00PM. Then we head over to a party. Hopefully I'll get a computer in handy and talk to you. But if I don't, here's a pre-everything: *kisses, huggles, squeezes, kisses, glomps, kisses,kisses kisses* aishiteru. ^_~ Anyways, GO TO COLLEGE IN NY OR NJ! If you don't, then I'll TRY to go to a college in Colarado, which I doubt my parents would let me...well actually they might, but I not too keen on it. Agh. Ok. I must go. Neeeeeed breakfast. Ja'ne. Aishtieru ~Kou-chan +learned to love on Saturday, August 18, 2001[10:50 a.m.]+ I hope you had fun at your friend's house. ^__^ Hope the movie you watched was good, too. Not much to say...I'm about to take my webpage back from Kris so hopefully by the end of the day it'll be mine again. x_x 18 days and she did 3 things on it...I've had a couple people ask me if AUWK was going to be a dead site. I won't let it be. I'm going to start preparing some extra htmls on my computer so when I force it out of her hands I can do some updating. Ai shiteru, koi! Hugs, nuzzles, and chocolate covered kisses! ~Starrie +learned to love on Saturday, August 18, 2001[09:16 a.m.]+ hey koi. I at friends house, and wanted to tell you hola. Just a little note to say aishiteru, btw, if you want to see our old entries, go to "ARCHIVES" on the side. Ok? ok. Ja'ne! Aishiteru. ~Kou-chan +learned to love on Friday, August 17, 2001[08:44 p.m.]+ |
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